I made it through another Blue Monday

Hi, everyone.

Apologies for the lack of blournal updates. I don’t have any excuses for being so remiss over the past few days aside from the fact that I’ve been feeling a bit out-of-sorts. Not to put too fine a point on it, but I’ve been feeling anxious since the year started. I’ve even alluded to it in a few previous blournal entries, so I won’t repeat myself, but suffice to say, I am genuinely uncertain as to how this year… or even the next few days or weeks… will pan out and quite frankly, that scares me to no end.

Sigh. You know… it’s times like this where I find myself regretting all the time I spent worrying about the state of the world. It’s something I’ve been doing since at least 2016, but I don’t regret being worried or scared. I still think my fears and concerns about the current state of the world are entirely valid, but I do regret letting those fears pile on top of me so often. That heightened anxiety has been so emotionally stifling and it’s probably why I’m not where I’d ideally to be in life.

So… is there anything else on my mind aside from the ongoing political instability? Well… I’m heading out to the cinema now in just under an hour’s time to see Marty Supreme and I’ll also hopefully be seeing 28 Years Later: The Bone Temple tomorrow. I’m excited as hell to see both films (which I’ve said many times already) and I’m also looking forward to watching the last few episodes of The Traitors this week. It’s been a surprisingly tense rollercoaster experience and I’m curious to see who will win this season. Kind of hoping it’s the Traitors this time as most of my favourite Faithfuls have been banished or murdered, but we’ll see.

In the meantime, take care.